I have found myself a job. Starting tomorrow =)
Excited and nervous. Now, I am just reflecting on what I have been doing........
And what have I been doing for the past three months ?
This is my typical day.
I slept a lot during these three months. What I did most was gaming. Spending lots of time online.
Reason why I even left my job.....
I have not mention this but my boss is really a monster.
There must be tons of reasons why the turnover rate is so high. I mean I see people leaving within a day !
The bosses are in denial. They are deluded. They take themselves as Gods. Their arrogance and flamboyance. They promote their religious views a tad bit too much for me to handle. In fact I felt spiritually oppressed.
Reason why I left the one before.....
The story is too depressing. I met this girl whom I thought I could trust. I even arranged her transfer from another department to mine. I treated her as a friend and how did she repay me...... Betrayal.......
Silly as it sounds, I trusted her when others wouldn't. I couldn't imagine anybody this grown up would betray a friend (She's a year older than me, and enjoys speaking in a squeaky childish voice). Others said that I was just too trusting. I felt cheated and of course I needed to get out. I never want to see a person like this any more. So I left to see more of the world.
Staying in one place too long is just not good for my growth. I need to just get out and get pounded and crushed. I am not a masochist, we all need to trampled before we can stand.
So I am now on to my third job, though it's just a temporary job. I will learn.
Three months of just playing games is over.
Why did I take so long to find a job?
I read somewhere that Perfectionists are great Procrastinators. I have to agree. I have not really see myself as a Perfectionist but I might just be running away from it. Avoiding it. You see, I never want to fight a losing battle.
The point is, I am not sure what job to take up. I do not have any idea what I really want to do.
I need to go to Church. I am just lost in this world.
In Singapore, you can't just do whatever you want. Asian values are so uncompromising. We need to study hard for what? To find a job. Why do we need a job ? We need to give allowances to our parents.
If you can't take care of your parents you are useless!
I am not saying that I am not happy about taking care of my parents. I love them even though they are bias. I will take care of them till death do us part. Since young, we are instil with this filial piety notion that I would feel guilty if I do not take care of them.
Sometimes there's just so much going on.
Quarter life crisis they call this. I do not have any more $$$$$ left to stay at home. I need to get out and get a life for now.
Till then!
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