I haven felt like that for so long.. I could not put this is words.. It is that complicated.. I am like the ultimate procrastinator.. I didn't want to complicate things between us.. Then something just had to happen.. I just can't get that image out of my head.. I don't blame you, I blame myself for letting my walls come down.. I shouldn't have let anything started.. Everytime I try to let somebody in my life, I end up getting hurt.. As we get older, relationships get more complicated.. All I ask for is a platonic relationship.. We hang out, we chill.. We don't do anything more than that..